When Pst. Kong called for alter call, my mind was spinning with thoughts. Images kept flying into my mind. Problems that might occur, situations that I might not be able to take it, circumstances that would make me break down forever kept coming into my mind.
My mind told me, it's impossible. How can someone like me, that has no money, that has no talent, that is not eloquent, that can't handle a few people in his group lead 200 over members?
How can I do it when my mum doesn't even know that I've been going to church for the past 3 years?
Thoughts that told me that I can never do it kept screaming into me.
But my heart says..
I long to bathe in His presence. I want to delight in the comfort of His spirit forever. I want my life to be full of excitement, to serve His purpose. I want to go on mission trips over to places that are in need. I want to be a humanitarian. I want to preach, inspire and transform the minds of people, telling them that they can have their salvation today. I long to cry before Him. I long to serve Him forever.
I went down to the alter call anyway.
Because I believed. I trust that though I may not have the traits to achieve it yet, I'll definitely get it. The pioneers had slain thousands, I believe that I can slay ten thousands. With God on my side, nothing is impossible.
I believe that with His love, I can do it.
Yes, I can. I can do it.
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