Rant.

WARNING, RANT AHEAD.
(it's not neccessay to read my rants, it's my way of relieveing stress)

It's unlike me to rant about things that disappoints me.

The first thing that seriously disappointed me are my parents.

My Dad, always think that I am the one spending a lot of money, not saving money. He says that I am spendrift and I don't have any idea how hard is it to earn money.

Yes, I spend quite a lot due to my school. I have to buy materials weekly to complete my assignments. I need to eat. The area around my school is considered city/town area already, food is not THAT cheap to the extend that everything is $2.50. That is what my Dad think.

I even have to pay for my own MRT fare. Sometimes to an extent, I have to skip meals in order to make up for materials and so on. I don't even need to take tithe into the picture to show that I am living on tight money. Yes, of course I do hope and believe I can have more.

I just don't get it, he complains that materials are expensive and I am spending too much. He kept telling me he wants to decrease my allowance. So I was thinking, if I don't spend on my materials, how on earth am I going to complete my assignment? And why on earth he let me go into NAFA? It's not that I am not working as hard as I can and wasting all the money spent on materials.

I just feel cheated. He bought wide-screen TV, a laptop, a new bed and a car. Yet he is saying I am spending TOO much? He even compares me to my brother, saying he don't spend a lot. I mean, like DUH? Of course my brother won't spend as much as I do, he's only sec 1!

When I told him I need a good laptop for my work, because our computer is being used by everyone and it's not really convenient. I can't bring my work around to do, sometimes I have to re-do the whole thing because my computer just can't support the programs. So, he told me to use his laptop. I told him, there is too much things in his laptop, it is too lag for doing my work. Then he says that why should he spend so much money.

This morning was worst. I asked my brother to help me look for my ear piece sponge. Then he scolded me and told me, next time if I want to look/search for my own stuff, do it myself.

Isn't this disappointing? My Dad telling me this? Not like when he wants to find his wallet/phone/etc and I tell him to look for it himself. I just don't get it.

He will always say that I play too much, I go out too much, I am lazy. Why? Because I don't do the housework. I just think it's dumb. I always thought, why the heck am I working so hard for? Not like I am failing, I am getting above average results. Instead of encouraging me or being contented with me, he slams me with negative comments JUST because I don't do housework.

My Mum. I really don't get it. She is not working, not a housewife, takes A LOT of money every month from my Dad, spends a lot. Yet she says that I have no self-discipline, I play most of the time, don't do housework, I am VERY lazy. I just just just don't get it.

Isn't she suppose to be the one doing housework? She always say that I don't even touch a single household chore. The thing is, I will definitely do it IF I HAVE THE TIME. But too bad, I just don't have it for the past month! I don't think by doing my homework to the point that I have to skip my sleep has time for me to do housework at all.

My parents just don't put themselves in my shoes. Instead, they always say that I don't put myself into their shoes! I mean, c'mon! I don't show them disrespect, I show them results that are not that bad, I don't drink, I don't hang out with bad companies, I don't club, I don't smoke, I don't even speak vulgarities! What more do they want from me?

I save as much money as I can to the extend of skipping meals, I am working very hard for the whole of this semester and even have to take care of household chores and tutoring my brother. I just don't feel that this is right at all.

Someone, please tell me, what should I do.

But, having to face all these crap, I've decided. I'll need to work even HARDER than ever. I'll definitely show them what have I been doing for the past 4 months. I'll show a clean and neat house. I'll do things that are VERY OBVIOUS to show that I am doing my best.

I'll face this crap and grow. Ugh.

Well, on the lighter side, I am enjoyed the Easter drama. I am glad that Dion came. I am happy to see so many new friends that came this evening. But too bad there are a few of my friends that didn't want to/can't come.

ALRIGHT. Rant's over, time to be happy again!