Thoughts.

Yay. This is my 200th post in this blog!

Yeah, I just want to share some of my thoughts with you guys. Something that had been in my mind for quite some time.

Sometimes as Christians, we became robots. Agree? We do things that became a routine for us. We became so superficial (regarding the surface). We became so unaware that we are not connected with God anymore. We serve, we do things as we are told, we go for service and cellgroup. Then leading to not praying, not having our own quiet time, doing things for the sake of doing. Becoming a Christian Christian.

Tian Wen usually talked to me about his Aunt, trying to push his grandma to become a Christian. Some how like forcing her or telling her if she does not turn to Christ she will go to hell and so on. Yeah, that is one example of Christian Christian.

Yes, it is good to serve, to help out, to help our fellow brothers and sisters, to go for service and cellgroup regularly. But what really matters, the basic of the basic, is to have a connection with God himself. It is to have a relationship with him, like a father. He is not a judge but a father. I doubt sons and daughters would treat their fathers like as though they are their judge right?

What God wanted in the first place is like why our parents would want a child for. To love.

God himself is love. He wants to give out his unconditional love. Which is why humans are created.

This year, I hope I would really begin to draw closer to God. Begin to really be more prayerful. Leading a life of sacrifice. Helping people. My motto is always the same, it is WHO are we here for and not WHY!

The other thing is that, there was a question unanswered in my heart. Quite long ago, I kept asking myself, am I in church and cellgroup for friends? for fufilling what I need to do? for killing time?

During the period when Shaun and Darwin took a break from both cellgroup and church really woke me up. The question suddenly came into my heart again. To ask me am I here because of God or Friends?

Finally, I got my answer. I am here for both.

I want God and friends together, as a family. Like the song goes, "Even when the thousand fall, I will stand with you". We should look God as our loving father, our peace, our light, our refuge. And never take him as our emergency exit route.

Okay, the next one.

Sometimes I feel that humans love to complicate things, hm?

But I guess this is part of human nature which makes us human, which makes us grow.

But sometimes it's hard to accept changes, accept complications and so on. I love things simple.

I guess it's part of me to be simple minded. And of course, I hope I won't be a gong tao lah.

I need to be sharp. I need to think quick. I have to.

I need to be more patient. I need to be more loving. I need to be more open.

Sometimes human needs to experience near death situations to not take things for granted. Like in "The day the Earth stood still" movie, everyone had to experience near death situations in order to change. I hope I'm not like that. I want to do things consistently and consistently improving.

Today, during cellgroup, Jared shared with us about showing kindness.

Suddenly, I thought to myself, am I showing kindness?

I know, people always say I'm kind. Yes, I am. But I find it difficult to show it. Both my IQ and EQ is not that high afterall. I guess I'll just have to pray about it then lol. So, I think this year, I aim to be more (insert word here) - show kindness, increase EQ, learn a few social skills.

Cellgroup today was superb. Its been quite some time to see our cellgroup come to near full attendance. The praise was great! Way to go Xiao Shi!

And yeah, Xiao Shi also talked about giving praise to God even the little things. Things like having a good week in school could be enough to be a testimony. Sometimes, we should not just focus on the BIG things that God had done in our lives, right?

I remember theres a saying that we should not look for God in the supernatural but begin to see it even in the natural. Very true indeed. Little things are the things that God didn't forget and we should be thankful! 

I'm thankful this week because actually this week should be my busiest week this term. Since its end of term, we are to submit loads of work and we would be rushing work during this week. Surprisingly, I've finished MOST of the work LAST week! So this week was a breeze compared to any other weeks.

I didn't plan on giving my building fund and tithe this week actually, because I find that I don't really have enough for the week since I have to print and buy stuffs this week. But miraculously, this week was kinda great for me. Money was not a big problem this week afterall! Thanks to the offering message last week and thank JASON for paying almost half of my lunch on Sunday!

I guess this week should be counted as the best week ever in 2009 so far!

I'm seeing my As already. My Photoshop assignment got an A! I hope my Illustrator assignment would get an A too as so does my Indesign assignment.

Now I'm loving Adobe Photoshop and Illustrator even more! The Pen Tool! It's really crazy to tell you that when I'm free, I don't play games. I play Photoshop and Illustrator.

Now things are really going fine! I can say, it is because I put God first.

In the first place, if I were to take a long break to finish my assignments and presentations, I would not have had a good time on Fridays and Sundays. I wouldn't have my questions answered. I wouldn't have paid my building fund and tithe. I wouldn't have had the energy, the strength, the enthusiasm to do my assignments!

Now I'm closer with my connect group. And I'm glad that Joel had settled his problem after much persuasion. I'm glad that Brandon is doing well. I'm glad that Pierson is doing great in school.

Also, this week I've spent more time with my brother because I've been doing my work at home.

I think the both of us had drifted apart a little after school started.

Yeah, above all, I really thank God for all the answers and the answered prayers. I will be looking forward to my 1st year's final results! I believe! As! Bs! GPA 3, here I come!