Money?!

Ahhhh My first post gonna be depressing.

First, My dad is playing too much Granado Espada and its taking over his brain.
I ask him buy Fan in the afternoon and in the night, when he came back he says he forgotten.
ITS BEEN MORE THAN 3 TIMES @__@

In the end, he kept telling me he is busy (he is busy gaming G.E. Literally).
This morning when I asked him for money for the day and Tuition fees.
Then he told me, "I thought I give you liao?"

I really got nothing to say so I walked off and brushed my teeth as I was rushing for school.
When I came back to the room to take my school pants, he was gaming already (its 6.50am).
Then he told me, "Wah, Take money give me that kind of long face meh? as if I owe it to you", "so you today got tuition? wah I left $100 only no money liao, nah here give you. You spend a lot of money leh! every time spend so much money, remember to return me $30 hor!" (in a sarcastic manner)

Then I went to my "piggy bank" and took out $30 bucks to return it to him. He didn't stop his "preaching" and he continued saying that I was using too much of his money, Over spending.

He took the $30 that I returned to him and threw it literally with anger and shouting at me. (its 7.10am)

In the first place, $60 bucks was to return to my tuition teacher which I owed him for 2 weeks, $4 for Recess, no lunch for me, no dinner money left, $5 bucks to top up my EZ-Link Card. $1 left to buy soya milk for tonight's "dinner".

Am I asking too much? Seriously, my brother's tuition fees already took up $250 and I don't see him complaining. Then he shouted at me saying, "Your mom everytime spend so much money! you all ask for money like as if I owe it to you like that..".

I says sorry and he says that I am giving him a long face -_-
Seriously man.. I don't know what to do, I only ask for money for Recess and Dinner or some times I don't even eat for Dinner. (yes no lunch for me)

I still remember 2 days ago he told me, "wah last time I only eat bread for breakfast and you eat so much meh?". Come on! What is the era already? still have to eat bread for the rest of the days meh? I dunno lah, dunno If I'm seriously asking too much from him.

Then last night, I brought up the form for the Graduation Dinner after O Levels, Prom Night at Raffles Hotel. He didn't even looked at the form and kept scolding me, "wah what is it again? can't you see I'm busy meh? (G.E. Gaming again)." So I told him its all written there, and he replied saying that I cannot read to him meh? Waaa really want to scold him straight in his face but I CONTROL!!!

Then I told him during prom night have to wear formal, formal top bottom and shoes.
He told me, "wa like that you don't go lah waste money only"

wa kao! its 1 in a lifetime thing yet he tells me not to go and its like $50 for the dinner and formal wear can spend until like what? $500 meh? Then I told him, "Never mind, I will think of a way to handle my clothes, I save my own money for it." then he told me I am using a bad attitude to talk to him.

I talk to him, he say I showing him attitude.
I face him and talk, he say I am showing him a long face?

Like that how? Don't talk to him ah!

Ahhhh Finally throw everything here inside this blog, hopefully I won't fret on this matter too much. Otherwise it would only affect my own emotions -_-

After all, if he really don't want to do these for me I might have to go find a job to sustain myself >_> which is really choking up my neck. I got O Levels this year, Monday, remedial in the afternoon, Tuition at night. Tuesday, remedial in the afternoon, Tuition at night. Wednesday, Drama mama thing, Thursday, remedial in the afternoon. Friday! finally can rest. Then for Sat and Sun, NO WAY!

The only day that I MIGHT be free is on friday! how to work! ahhhhh hopefully all these negative thoughts, negative events that is happening now would be gone after this post.

If you were to really read till here, I ought to thank you a lot for reading off my piece of crap >_>

Nevertheless, thank you!