15 Days

15 Days before enlistment photos (some are missing tho).

Yeah.. I actually stopped taking photos. Here I am, with 3 days left! Thankful to everyone for their well wishes and prayers for my enlistment! In these few days, I dyed my hair, got my diploma, got my new geek specs, bought army stuff!

I think I want to take this opportunity to thank God in this blog. Thank God in advance for good company, good sergeant, good bunkmates, good buddy, favor from everyone. Thank God that I WILL be the head and not the tail. Thank God that I will be the salt and light in NS!

No times like this is coincidental, PES B is my chance to really build up physically and mentally and it's also the chance for me to learn some leadership skills.

1 The LORD is my shepherd;
I shall not want.
2 He makes me to lie down in green pastures;
He leads me beside the still waters.
3 He restores my soul;
He leads me in the paths of righteousness
For His name’s sake.

4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil;
For You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.

5 You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies;
You anoint my head with oil;
My cup runs over.
6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me
All the days of my life;
And I will dwell[a] in the house of the LORD
Forever.

— Psalm 23:1-6

Life & Death

This week was a emotional roller coaster. It’s hard for me as a friend, to see Debbie’s brother’s life end so abruptly. Life is so unpredictable and so fragile.

It’s very difficult for me to see how heart broken they are. This is the moment when I feel totally useless, as a friend, how much help can I provide to ease that void in their hearts?

In fact, nobody can.

Throughout the whole memorial service and cremation, I can truly see how much impact Derrick did in his lifetime. Many times, I can’t stand to look into the eyes of his family and friends. I’ve also learned a lot from him, even when I did not know him personally but through the testimonies by his friends I’ve learned that we ought to be more generous. Generous with time, money, and even some sincere affection.

During the memorial services, I thought to myself, “what kind of person would I want to be remembered as?” Tough question. The answer is, ‘Be the person you want to be remembered as’. Legacy is crucial. I guess even in death, a man of God like him can still shine. Because the glory of God over powers the power of death.

At the end of the whole event, all I can say is that he is very loved. How I wish he can see it for himself.

Well, I guess someday when I see him in heaven, I’ll say, “wazzup!”. It will be an honor to meet him.

“We all die. The goal isn’t to live forever, the goal is to create something that will.” — Chuck Palahniuk